There is too much “God“ in this

Recently I noticed a problem with deciding at myself. It is going with me for a long time and it hurts me. I cannot say it is behind me, but I think I found out something useful and revolutionary today.

We ask God about His will too much. In this case we much keep God completely out of it! Do not get me wrong, please: God is needed to decision. But we ungently put our responsibility on His shoulders by asking about His will comfortly! I realise I do not do it by faith, but by comfort and it is wrong.

I have a dilema and ask God: “What do you want me to do?“ and he replies: “And what do YOU want?“ I ask God so much like I would be afraid to choose. In the movied Facing the Giants there is a backup coach and he stands in front of not easy task: The main coach is weak and unable to lead his team and the sport’s leadership force the backup coach to use his authority during the voting and put this main coach out of ring (later we find out that God will help this main coach, but nobody know about it yet). What will the main coach do? Beg his assistant not to betray him? Is he holding back not to screw anything? NO! He comes to him and says: “Make a choice! Hasitating will not help anybody.“

It’s the same with me. Do I really ask about God’s will, or is it that I am afraid to choose, because I am so scared of consequences? Thank you, Lord, that you risk so much with me as the main coach did! I even think that the bad choice is better than no choice. I noticed that during my studies.

Do I want to study? No? ... I ask God and hear nothing. Stupid? No. Not getting the answer from God gives us a great advantage: We have a huge freedom in choosing (if it is generaly about good things). You don’t know school to study? And God says nothing? Great, you can make a choice on your own – but a-ha! Consequences. But anyway, it is better to finish the wrong school than not to start with studies at all, right?

Next thing is that God’s will does not prosper here. I asked about it so much, but when God shows it to me, I am lazy to do it. I found that this June at the end of my semester. I was not able to study enough for my oral exam, I had already had a job, so I was not worried about firing me from the school. I told God: “Be Your will. If they fire me, it means you don’t want me here. If I pass, I know, it’s Your will to stay here and study.“ I came there with two another boys, who studied much more harder than me. Those two were fired, I passed. God showed me, He wants me there.

But this was like the end for me. Until I realised that God’s will must never be the end! It is about decision – do we want it too? And if not, it is better to do even bad choice, because hesitating will not help anybody. Either I want to study and I will do maximum for that, or I do not – but in that case I will look for life at different place.

Please, apply this alegory about studies on university to your other personal problems in families, relationships, marriages and so on. There is always choice needed and to go for it.

Last thing about that: priorities. If I decide about something seriously, I need to choose how high priority it is for me. About this choice the best to do is to make a priority-list. And, of course, to obey it. Done? OK, how is it going? Get up in moring and go to the bathroom. Clean your self. OK, hygiene is important. Next? Morning prayers, lunch, studying, some time with your girlfriend at the evening, evening prayers and go to bed. We did not study so hard as we decided to. I ask my self – how much time did I spend on facebook that day? Why is it so important? Because facebook was not on my priority-list! It is not on the list, so it goes to the background – I do mainly the things, which ARE on the list.

You know what? I can visit facebook. You can do it for two hours per day. You can be there even five hours per day. You can easily be there since morning till night and waste your time. Really. You really can and it is not a sin. You can, but only if it’s on your priority-list.

I hope you understand, you need wisdom to make a choice and to arrange your priorities. But the paragraph above is there because of Jesus‘ words: Let be your YES yes and NO no. Make you priorities-list, but do not lie to yourself. They obey it.

Last thing: you will fail for sure. You need God to lead you through this. And because thisi is his perfect plan and he raises us to make choices, that is why he will bless us in this. But we are people and we will fail. I did have problems with one sin and thank God I did deal with it. After some time I fought with other problems and God helped me even with that ones. But then the serious hurt came, when the old sin came up and I surrended it – everything went down like a house from the cards. You blow and it is gone just like that. Just gone. And you can start all over again. And I think I am scared so much especially because of my tries. I don’t want to fail, I do not want to start all over again.

But this is how it works with God, He said: Behold, I make everything new! Are you afraid that now, when you are doing well with God, you are loayal, you fight a good fight, so now, are you scared about failure and losing everything. Let me encourage you – you will really lose it. You will fail, fall and lose everything. But our Lord is loayal, when he will not build the same house you destroyed – he will build a new, much bigger and better house. And that is why I will try eventhough I am scared about my falling and not going well. God is with me in this.

Do not be afraid!